A change in focus

As a young lad i always had a thing for drawing, whether it was with crayons, mud, pencils or pens. Then as I got older I got lost in the world of comic books, so my love for drawing and comics naturally came together. Over the years I would like to say I got decent at it, so I decided that i wanted to become a comic book artist. Now here is the problem with that, i have drawn two sequential pages in my life. I have always been good at pin up art.
So blah blah life goes on. My art and I separate for a few years, and we do our own thing. Now I am all growed up and suddenly have this urge to hook back up with my art. Thing is i find that the stuff i used to draw doesn't fit in my life anymore, so i decide to try my hand coloring. Now , in my opinion, after 10 colors i dint think i am half bad. I feel a sort of knack for this coloring on the compy thing. Problem is now that i feel like i am getting stuck in doing art for the masses and not for myself. This is no good, being worried about if this person or that person digs it. Screw that, i want to make art.
I have been perusing Deviant Art, a place where artists of all walks hang, from pencillers to sculptors and i am finding myself drawn to digital painting. Now I had a very short stint with some oils back in the day thanks to my grandma, and i had a blast with it. Sorry i am losing my gusto here. Anywho long story short, I find that it is time to create art I love, in a style that fits me. So take a hike comic art, cause it is time for daddy to paint, digitally ( no mess), orcs, and sword swingers, and chicks with big "ahem" guns. I will do this in my style using methods that work for me. not some guy on some art board who thinks, that just because he did a cover for some underground comic, that he is gods gift to artists and his word should be heard as gospel.
So will I suck for awhile, sure. Will I have fun, hells to the yeah. Cause isn't that what art is supposed to be about. Doing something you love, and having fun while doing it?

Rant over.